Friday, April 18, 2014

Black Hole...

Silence...sometimes its a good thing and sometimes it's not.  Depends on how you feel, what your gut instinct is telling you.  There are moments in life when you know in your core that something is going on with someone and you can't reach them.  You try, but they won't allow you in their world.  Maybe it's too much for them to handle and they can't imagine sharing it with others. 

But something I realized is that when I feel that someone needs me to reach out, I do, and I don't have any issues with letting them know that I feel it for a reason and that I'm there for them.  No matter what.

Sometimes that black hole seems so awfully deep that I want to fall in and find them.  Life hands us challenges everyday and it always shows us truth, new life and path.  Our ego gets in the way of allowing ourselves to move through whatever it is keeping us in that black hole that we lose sight of the light.  That light can come in the form a friend, a stranger or even an animal.  Showing compassion and love when you need it most. Spirit speaks to you IF you listen...

When I was lost in my dark hole I pushed everyone away and it only hurt myself.  I was the one in my own personal prison and I wish that I would have had someone to really grab my hand and show me that there is a better way.  But I didn't have that and I want to tell my friend that whatever your going through, I'm here, waiting to show you that there is love and light in this world and if I have to fall into the black hole and find you in the dark I will and all you need to do is reach out your hand and I'll grab it.

Love and Light in my Heart

Sunday, April 13, 2014

The Time Is Now...

Well 5 years ago I planted a seed that I was going to be moving to the beach, live my life's passion and love my life.

Fast forward 5 years and it's all starting to unravel into the world I created for myself.  I knew that I needed to be a good mother, show stability to my son, work hard, make something of myself and then eventually move the beach when my son graduates high school.  Knowing that my son isn't the type to run off to college, he is more of the adventurous type, taking each day by day and not really thinking too much about what he is going to do tomorrow.  I would say I can see him with a backpack a few buddies and running a muck around this incredible earth we have that holds secrets, magic and sacred places waiting to be discovered.  And frankly, I love that my son is such a free spirit.  Let's me know I did a good job raising him.  Not taking life so seriously, worrying about what others think of you.

A lot has transpired since January 1, 2014.  I knew this year was going to be a big one for me, I could feel it the night the clock struck midnight!  I immediately sent a text to my sister saying...."This is the year!"  with a quick response back from her...."I know, I'm feeling it too!"  Wow - and can I say that it has so far surpassed both of our expectations and it's only the first of April.  Which this April in 2014 is full of intensity.

90 days later my sister and her husband decided to take the leap of faith and drive to Florida this weekend and take the journey to find a new life.  What's funny about this is she was always telling me that I would be the one moving there before her.  Then a couple of weeks ago we were Skyping and she was telling me about all the things that were not going right in her life and how they were needing to move by June 1st, and I immediately tuned into the fact that it sounded like to me that they needed to take a look at their situation and move now because stars are aligned.  After a weekend of talking about it together, they were on board and their son was so excited to hear that they are moving to the beach~

So over the past couple of weeks she made frantic phone calls to some contacts in the area that we had made while visiting this past October on my 50th birthday and rounded up a place to stay down the street and in perfect proximity to the beach and her husband had an interview and I'm dying to hear how their weekend went because I know they were blown away what transpired.

I know that when I go the first week of June that it will be the really hard to come back to reality.  My hope is that when I get there my world start to unravel and take me to that special place called my new home.


Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Organic Matcha - Ancient Secret to Longivity...

Since my discovery into the world of Eden our garden of life force energy I've been smitten with the power of nature and write about it in many forms either through my food site 

or my novel Indian Summer 

I've been inspired to send this message into the world and share my knowledge.  

This road took me to Integrative Nutrition where I studied this concept and it opened up the door to new possibilities in health that I craved to learn more and more about, a fascinating journey into our magical world.  Truly changing my life.

Last week I was approached by Kiss Me Organics ( to test their product and review.  Loving Matcha Powder I gladly accepted.  

But what is this Matcha and how does it transform your health? 

How does the following sound to you?

Mega Mental Energy Boost...Check

Increased Metabolism Boost...Check

Beautiful Skin...Check


137X Antioxidants of Brewed Green Tea...Check Check!

What's so incredible about this Matcha Powder is you can add it to anything you want - lattes, smoothies, baked goods, etc.  Plus they provide you with a nice little recipe ebook to give you inspiration to make your love with this Matcha.

Since I'm on the run a lot in the morning, I like to make it quick and do a Morning Matcha Shot.  I combine either 4 oz of coconut or almond milk with  1 tsp Matcha Powder and squeeze of honey - blend with my emulsifying stick and there you go!  Super shot for the morning - great mental focus and energy to start the day.

Excellent product - Fresh and Organic.  Who doesn't love that?

This product is sold exclusive on Amazon.  CHECK it out...What a fabulous way to start your day!

Love the Spirit that flows in this plant...

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Tornado Dreaming - In a Distance is a a Crossroad on Emotions

I have been sensing a rumble since I went to Florida for my 50th birthday with my sister this last October.  It seems that every time we are together we stir up something, it's a magical energy we generate in each other's presence. 

During that time in Florida I told my sister that it was going to be just us two soon as our mother has been so ill and she in turn said that she felts something really drastic was going to happen to me.  Then this past Friday our mother passed and it wasn't that much of a surprise as it was the start of the tornado ripping through my life.

When I have vivid dreams I know that something is stirring inside and around me.  Especially dreams of tornadoes.  The destructive ones, the ones that rip through the lands and over the highways and close to your home.  When I dream of tornadoes I see them in the distance sometimes more than one tornado.  As I get anxious in my sleep, I realize that I'm sleeping and just dreaming, putting myself to ease, but then I'm in the moment of the dream as if I'm not sleeping(disturbing I know). When the tornadoes get closer and I take cover, I never dream of the tornado hitting where I am however the anticipation of  it getting closer is the real thrill in the dream, sending my emotions running in 90 different directions.

The last time I had tornado dreams so vividly my world completely changed, so drastically that I didn't see it coming and it was like full blown destruction.  Since my mother's passing I've been having some tornado dreams.  Not sure exactly how to put the spin on the meaning behind it yet.   Plus the combination of not being able to sleep well hasn't settled to well with me either.  

 I do know that I have  had a nagging feeling in my stomach that tells me something is stirring.  There has been a lot of emotion this past week with traveling to Alabama and back, running into family that I've not seen a long time or met at such a horrible time of loss.  Plus an old encounter crossed my path, one that put a mark on me 23 years ago that I never put to rest.

One thing that was interesting was I was wearing this necklace that he had given to me 23 years ago when I arrived to my sisters house.  We were hanging out talking and she asked me where I got the necklace and I replied from (won't mention his name) and she said, well I just found him on Facebook. Now, let me tell you...I about fell over not only because I had the necklace on but because I had a really strong urge to wear it almost everyday for about the last couple of months and we were just talking about finding him in July when I was visiting.  I've been wondering what happened to this man for the past 10 years at least.  But have never been able to find him.

We eventually talked on the phone and my heart fell...immediately, my emotions were extremely high and one thing that I sensed from him was a very strong emotion that I couldn't describe.  More intense than I've felt from someone at a distance before.  We were 2.5 hours apart and it felt like he was right next to me.  It was extremely heavy and almost overwhelming.  

At first I tried to chalk it up to the over mixed emotions I was feeling from my mother's passing but it wasn't that kind of feeling.  It was different.  I still can't put my finger on it but it is rumbling way in the background.  Slowly approaching and my curiosity has the best of me.  I've only had that kind of feeling one other time and it was years ago when something drastic happened to my life.  I can remember sitting out on the back patio of my house and the wind was rustling the trees in a mighty stir.  I was just sitting there calmly feeling the energy stirring, it was really exhilarating.  I knew instantly at that moment something really crazy was getting ready to happen to me and sure enough it did within just a few days.

I have to say that my emotional, misunderstood and exhausted body was hit hard last week.  Being emotionally psychic is very draining.  A feeling I don't like to welcome to often as it takes a lot out of me.  This emotional psychic ability it's called clairsentience, the ability to feel the emotions of other people.  Most people who don't understand this ability think that I'm probably off my rocker a bit but it's something I've had to live with for all of my life. 

As everyone at the funeral services hugged me and passed on their energy and each person said to me how much I looked just like my mother, it was extremely overwhelming.  On top of that I had the emotions I was feeling from the man in my past that was really from left field, pulling and nagging on me like I haven't felt in over 15 years!  Emotions I didn't enjoy too much.  It was very intense.

So just because I'm gifted with the sixth sense of clairsentience, I have am having a difficult time keeping things in order due to this stir.  I guess my tornado is getting ready to rip through and make a mark again and I'm not to sure how to receive it.

Feeling a little Stormy again...


Monday, February 10, 2014

When Spirit Speaks...

The sound of rain falling is so peaceful a sound I welcome with open arms.  The showers that blanket the earth cleanse us with release and bring in new life in different form.  

Friday a storm brewed in, just in time to get the news that my beloved Mother passed away.  As I took my journey across four states to lay her at peace, I felt the rain fall down the entire drive.

As I approached her road that runs by her house off the highway, the rain fell so hard that I couldn't see.  My windows were clear the entire way.  But at one moment when I was thinking of her leaving this plane I wondered what she saw at that moment when she passed and for a split second - the entire car fogged up and I couldn't see to drive.  It was if she was sending me a message to show me how it looked, a radiant glow of fog.  I had to pull over and wipe down the windows in order to move forward again.  

As I pulled back onto the freeway, my windows cleared up, quickly as if there wasn't anything to make it fog again.  I knew that moment, she was speaking to me.  Letting me know that she is alright, her spirit has passed into a world that we can't see but a journey will all take.

There is nothing more special that a Mother's love....

Native Souls

When a spirit grows inside a Mother's womb, the bond is like no other.  For the strength of their love is forever created...Native Souls.

I love you Mommie....You are dearly missed

Light & Love...